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This Meme.
I don't expect participation but this is on the off-chance there are questions. Warning For Those Who May Ask: I will most likely be terrible at this meme because I have a hard time making my brain cooperate with giving out information that I want to keep secret. As such, I may or may not answer them properly if I plan to use the topic of your asking against you or someone else at some point in the future. |
THIS ASSHOLE.
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ELABORATE IN DETAIL
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:33 < *she wiggles her rump cutely and attacks!*
:33 < *only in the proc33ding tumble does she remember shes been asked a question*
:33 < *temporarily abandoning the purrsuit of the wily and elusive preystring the kitten looks up and says:*
:33 < what if you got to s33 me again??
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what he explained to other ppl ICly has been gayer
PART 1 BECAUSE I HAVEN'T WRITTEN THE REPLY TO THE SECOND QUESTION YET.
But his insistence in his ideals not changing is an honest reply other than his claim of troll romance being superior. He isn't sure about what he wants out of relationships in general because he's still trying to confine them within the quadrants despite saying he wasn't going to engage in any quadrant-like relationships outside of the moirallegiance he'd already established -- and this is difficult for him because as much as he likes to over-complicate relationships with the quadrant system, what he genuinely wants is more in line with everything monogamous humans want out of their relationships. No matter how many people he ends up liking, once he's in a relationship, he's not the sort of troll who would be okay with pursuing other romantic interests regardless of the quadrant.
He wouldn't want a kismesissitude with a different person (I have my doubts he'd even want one in general -- except with himself, since he's the only one he hates -- more than he just enjoys being terrible, rough, occasionally mean, and derives pleasure out of superficial bickering and fighting). If he didn't already have a moirail, he wouldn't want a moirallegiance. (He is intensely jealous of Vriska but would never try to stop her from her clusterfuck attempt at moirallegiance with John because trying to stop things from happening with Terezi and Vriska in the past didn't work out; Karkat himself already has a moirail; Karkat himself wouldn't even be a good moirail for John; he wouldn't want to tell John not to do anything since he feels like that would be controlling and has already learned trying to control things just ruins them; and he would want John to make decisions for himself since if he tried to control things in the first place that would cheapen the relationship.)
He also wouldn't want to auspisticize between John and anyone else because that would imply he was keeping a blackrom relationship from happening between John and someone else -- and he doesn't want anyone else being a third wheel in their relationship. He is too possessive (he doesn't act on it), too paranoid, too insecure, and too 1,000 other problems to be okay with it.
In short: he has always wanted the same person in every quadrant and doesn't know how to reconcile that because he was raised with a quadrant system. He feels alien and weird in his own skin with regards to actually enacting troll romance, but enjoys the nuances of it in troll media and loves to discuss it.
Essentially, the quadrants are nothing but a hobby he's interested in when dealing with them as they relate to everyone else, but wouldn't want them himself. It leads to a lot of complicated and weird feelings because he has no idea how to handle because he thinks he's abnormal, fucked up, and even more of a mutant than everyone originally thought.
SERIOUSLY, A TROLL WHO ISN'T OK WITH HAVING MORE THAN ONE PERSON IN THEIR QUADRANTS?? HOW WEIRD IS THAT. REALLY WEIRD. REALLY, REALLY WEIRD.
PART 2 I REFUSE TO PROOFREAD THIS SO I'M SURE THERE ARE A TON OF ERRORS + IT'S REDUNDANT
His views on other relationships have changed as he's acquired more friends and talked to more people. When he played SGRUB, he came to value his troll friends. When he cooperated with the human kids, he abandoned the idea that their universe should have been a plaything for their obviously superior and awesome gods (aka trolls). When a handful of humans were the quickest to accept him and spend the most time around him before his other friends arrived (Victor, Nathan, Souji), he's become much quicker to open up and acknowledge people as sentient beings with feelings and emotions because they were so quick to accept him. He doesn't realize he's doing this. It's a subconscious thing.
He still doesn't have much care for the opinions of strangers, but he gives more consideration to nameless groups of people overall instead of just looking at it as "How much of a shit do I give when this is literally none of my concern and has nothing to do with me." That said, he still does ignore a lot of things that aren't his business because he doesn't feel like getting involved -- but the fact that changed at all exists, so there it is. The end point is he isn't nearly as self-centered as he was when he first arrived even if he is prone to fits of selfishness.
Friendship has always been important to him, but as time goes by in New Moore, it becomes more important because there is no room for advancement here. There are no intergalactic fleets. There are no Threshecutioner ideals, which is another thing that bothers him: knowing what he knows now about what that job entails and the ruthless subjugation of other planets -- including myriad species probably not unlike the humans, whom he genuinely likes -- he feels like he was dangerously close to being able to be someone he'd now regret being. He feels like he could have gone on and murdered other sentient races mindlessly had he not learned to value the things he's learned to value. Whether he actually could have is another thing entirely, but he feels like he could have and that's all that's important. It's not a good thought for someone absorbed in guilt to retain and hold onto, using as evidence for why they're a horrible person. (Yet he sees nothing wrong with Meenah appointing him her Threshecutioner. Meenah actually seems to care about people to some degree though, so that's different? Probably? Also there's no harm in admitting Her Imperious Condescension is pretty cool. No matter how you look at it, she's a hell of a lady. Maybe not a good one, but still the type that can make you look and go "Daaamn, she could murder me with like no effort whatsoever. Also she's kinda hot and really terrifying.")
His ideals about leadership and himself as a person have changed the most. It's hard to comment on his feelings about leadership without dragging him into it because his feelings about himself are so tightly wound around his failures as a leader.
While during the game and even post-session he considered himself a fairly great leader (at least capable of doing some things right), he doesn't consider himself one anymore. He doesn't even think what he did was good anymore. With news that he stepped down from leadership and handed it over to Rose and Dave in the alpha timeline, he chewed himself apart until he nailed the final nail in the corpse box of his views on his leadership skills.
A lot has happened in New Moore that has worn him down and driven home the point (to him) that he was never cut out to do the job. He's insecure and as a consequence deals in comparisons, thinking people like Souji and John are true leaders. He thinks people like himself couldn't lead their way out of a room with one door. He feels like even though the session he lead was a success, he still failed each of his teammates and he continues to do so with every subsequent fuck-up he makes. He remembers his impatience with the genesis frog and hearing from Roxy about the world she had to endure, found a way to blame himself and his actions for the scratch. If he hadn't created a weak universe in the first place, it wouldn't have produced such a failure of a session. John wouldn't have had to scratch. If he hadn't had to scratch, then that version of the human earth never would have had to be destroyed.
Karkat can find anything negative and lead it back to himself and his poor decisions as a leader without noticing there's a sort of arrogance in assigning all that blame to himself, as if because he can't think of himself positively he's desperately trying to make himself relevant and more important than he actually is in a negative way.
He spent a long time desperately wishing for his friends' respect and now that he has it, thinks it's undeserved and knows he's a coward because he wouldn't be able to handle it if they revoked it. At the same time, he couldn't even protect them and actively made choices that resulted in their deaths and/or hurt them.
As a leader, no matter how awful he thinks he is at it, he resolved to never run from Gamzee again because he decided he'd rather face death himself than be responsible for more of his friends dying again -- but he even lies to himself with that. He doesn't actually think Gamzee would ever kill him in New Moore. He knows the chance is there, but he doesn't think it's going to happen for some reason.
His interest as a leader has gone from trying to get everyone to respect him to making sure everyone gets the chances they never got to get because their lives were cut short. He wants them all to live and to be happy and grow as people. Everyone he cares about staying alive has become his top priority to the point of obsession. He wears himself down.
And he hates himself because there's a part of him that's happy and doesn't hate himself, because he's convinced he doesn't deserve that. Why shouldn't he hate himself? Why does he deserve how good he has it right now? Why did John start to like him? He doesn't get it, but he's afraid to ask.
(Cat fact: he did later, after being murdered horribly as the Signless by Eridan as Dualscar the first time it happened, develop a handful of symptoms of PTSD and occasionally does relive the panic of being chased by Gamzee; his failures to prevent his friends' deaths; not paying enough attention to stop Eridan from killing Feferi and Kanaya; the dismembered bodies; etc., etc., etc., which has lead to his dumb brain shutting down whenever confronted with similar circumstances, such as everyone trying to kill each other and failing at killing each other, leading him to not considering the circumstances but thinking about the final outcome and flippantly blowing it all off like "Oh yeah, that, no big deal, sure yep I'm not going to think about that and I'm not going to process it at all I completely refuse to process it. SURE IS GREAT THAT YOU GUYS ARE ALIVE. WHY ARE YOU UPSET ABOUT THIS AGAIN? I MEAN YOU DIDN'T DIE. YOU DIDN'T DIE AND THAT'S GREAT. LET'S FOCUS ON THE PART WHERE YOU DIDN'T DIE! GOD, I'M SO GLAD YOU DIDN'T DIE.")
Basically, his views on leadership and all the stuff tangled up in it have become a lot worse. He thinks he's thoroughly disgusting and that everyone would be better off without him because he isn't a good person: he's a weak coward who doesn't deserve anything he's got. At this point the only thing he's good for is working to keep everyone else alive. He feels it's something he owes to them so they can have the lives his lack of leadership robbed them from having.
He really isn't in a good mental place in TF, which I find hilarious because he's also relatively happy and able to have meaningful relationships without being consumed by his depression. The way he disconnects and doesn't see his feelings about himself as a problem (because he thinks it's fact) is ridiculous.
Basically, he's especially a mess with everything connected to leadership. (If people compliment him on his leadership skills, he tries to ignore or otherwise avoid it, whereas he used to eat them up because he's desperate for approval.)
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I literally double-facepalmed
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I HATE EVERYTHING.
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hi i'm here to help
THANKS A LOT I'M LEAVING AFTER I ANSWER THIS SHIT. 1/SEVERAL.
YOU'RE ASKING HOW MY OPINIONS HAVE CHANGED WHICH IS EASY ENOUGH BUT YOU'RE ALSO TALKING A LOT ABOUT "HAPPINESS" AND "MURDER"
LIKE THOSE TWO SENTIMENTS ARE HITCHED LIKE A HUMAN MARRIAGE AND CAN'T GET ENOUGH OF EACH OTHER!
THIS HAPPY COUPLE HAS NO "DIVORCE" IN SIGHT. THEY'LL EACH BELONG TO ONE ANOTHER, TO HAVE AND TO HOLD TILL DEATH DO THEY PART!
AND CONSIDERING ONE OF THEM IS *FUCKING MURDER* I CAN SAY IN GOOD CONSCIENCE HAPPINESS' LIFESPAN HAS JUST GONE DOWN BY A METRIC SHITTON.
YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MANY TONS OF SHIT IT HAS GONE DOWN. THE SHIT IS SO HEAVY HAPPINESS IS SMOTHERED WITH IT.
IN FACT, I THINK THE COOLING HOLLOWED OUT HUSK OF HAPPINESS IS ALREADY DEAD ON THE GROUND, SO I HOPE THEIR TORRID AFFAIR WAS WORTH IT!
IT SOUNDS LIKE YOU THINK THERE'S NOTHING I SHOULD CHERISH MORE THAN MY BATSHIT "MURDER BUDDIES" RETAINING THEIR MURDEROUS SENSIBILITIES.
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I COMPLETELY AGREE WE'RE ALL RESPONSIBLE FOR THE CHOICES WE MADE IN OUR SESSION
AND OUR FAILURES WITH REGARDS TO WHAT HAPPENED ON THE METEOR
BUT ALL OF US WERE UNDER UNIQUE CIRCUMSTANCES BACK THEN.
OUR LIFE IS OVERALL PRETTY STABLE HERE, ERRATIC EPISODES OF UNPRECEDENTED SHITLAND FUCKERY NOT WITHSTANDING.
I MEAN THINK ABOUT IT. COMPARED TO WHAT WE'VE FACED, THE STUFF THAT GOES ON HERE IS PRACTICALLY A "CAKE WALK."
WHATEVER THAT ACTUALLY MEANS. WHO MADE THAT PHRASE UP ANYWAY?
A CAKE WALK JUST SOUNDS STUPID, LIKE WHAT JOHN DID WHEN HE DECIDED TO CRAM HIS ARMS INTO CAKE
EXCEPT INSTEAD OF USING ARMS YOU'RE JUST STEPPING IN IT
AND IF YOU'RE NOT WEARING THE APPROPRIATE GEAR AT THE END OF YOUR APPENDAGES
IT GETS BETWEEN YOUR LOWER EXTREMITIES AND IT JUST IS SQUISHY AND UNCOMFORTABLE.
ACTUALLY SCRATCH THAT, IT'S NOT LIKE A "CAKE WALK" AT ALL.
IT'S LIKE SOMETHING THAT DOESN'T SUCK NEARLY AS MUCH AS WHAT WE WERE ORIGINALLY HANDED.
NOT THAT I'M TRASHING LIFE ON ALTERNIA. ALTERNIA WAS AWESOME.
THE AMOUNT OF CULTURAL HISTORY OUR RACE EXPERIENCED WAS SO MUCH MORE THAN THE PITIFUL EXCUSE FOR CULTURE HUMANS HAVE.
BUT IT'S ACTUALLY NICE TO NOT WORRY ABOUT GETTING CULLED WHENEVER YOU STEP OUTSIDE
EVEN IF THERE'S NOT EXACTLY MUCH TO DO WHEN YOU'RE STRANDED ON AN ISLAND WITH NO WAY TO GET OFF.
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PERSONALLY? I'VE CONTINUED TO DO A LOT OF STUPID STUFF HERE.
BUT THIS ISN'T ABOUT ME, SO WHATEVER. ANYWAY, ERIDAN DESTROYED THE MATRIORB AND OBLITERATED ANY HOPE FOR OUR RACE TO CONTINUE.
WE ARE LITERALLY THE LAST OF OUR KIND. WE'RE GOING TO GO EXTINCT AND WHEN WE DIE THE HUMANS WILL PROBABLY ENGAGE IN A CORPSE PARTY
FOLLOWED BY THEIR WEIRD CORSE BURYING RITUALS
AND THEN SOMEBODY LIKE ARADIA IS GOING TO DIG UP OUR BONES THOUSANDS OF YEARS LATER AND WONDER "WHAT THE FUCK WAS UP WITH THESE THINGS? WHY DO THEY HAVE HORNS???"
AND THERE'S GOING TO BE NO ANSWER BECAUSE WHATEVER SPECIES EXISTS AT THAT TIME WILL PROBABLY CLAIM THE ANGELS PUT OUR BODIES THERE TO CHALLENGE THEIR FAITH OR SOMETHING
SO OUR BONES GO BACK INTO A HUMAN NECROPOLIS OR DROPPED OFF IN THE SEA OR MADE INTO CHEAP UTENSILS UNTIL THEY CRACK OR BREAK AND THEN SUBSEQUENTLY GET THROWN OUT, NEVER TO BE SEEN AGAIN.
HE KILLED KANAYA. WHEN HE ARRIVED, I THOUGHT HE WAS LYING WHEN HE TOLD ME SHE CAME BACK TO LIFE AND KILLED HIM!
IT JUST SEEMED LIKE THE KIND OF BULLSHIT HE'D MAKE UP TO STOP ME FROM BEING PISSED OFF AT HIM, SO I TOLD HIM TO FUCK OFF.
I REALLY HATED HIM. EVERYTHING ABOUT THAT EMOTION WAS PLATONIC. I SINCERELY WANTED HIM TO DIE.
THEN KANAYA SHOWED UP AND IT TURNED OUT HE WASN'T LYING TO ME AFTER ALL.
HE DIDN'T EVEN RUB IT IN MY FACE THAT MUCH.
WHEN I WAS WORRIED ABOUT TEREZI NOT BEING HERE HE ACTUALLY TRIED TO BE NICE TO ME ABOUT IT, LIKE A FRIEND WOULD.
HE'S
I DUNNO. I MEAN, HE'S STILL ERIDAN? BUT HE'S GOTTEN A LOT BETTER.
I KNOW HE FUCKED UP A LOT IN THE PAST BUT I DON'T THINK HE'D MAKE THOSE MISTAKES AGAIN.
I CAN'T REALLY SAY IF HE'D BETRAY ANYONE ELSE, BUT I DON'T THINK HE'D TURN HIS BACK ON ME.
HE HASN'T DONE THAT YET AND I DON'T SEE WHY HE WOULD.
WHAT I'M SAYING IS I KNOW HE'S DANGEROUS BUT HE'S ALSO MY FRIEND AND I TRUST HIM.
THAT ENDED UP BEING PRETTY SURPRISING!
I DIDN'T THINK I'D FEEL THAT WAY ABOUT HIM AGAIN.
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I DON'T ACTUALLY LIKE TO THINK ABOUT IT.
WHY DID HE KEEP SEVERED PRONGS?
WHY DID HE MURDER OUR FRIENDS?
I KNOW I SENT EQUIUS TO KILL HIM AND THEN NEPETA GOT INVOLVED
BUT WHY DID HE HAVE TO DO THAT TO THEM? I MEAN
GOD
BLOOD WAS EVERYWHERE.
ERIDAN WAS IN THREE PIECES.
HE CUT HIM UP AFTER HE WAS ALREADY DEAD.
I MEAN I GUESS AT LEAST HE ONLY REALLY STARTED TO CUT UP CORPSES FOR THE MOST PART AFTER THEY WERE DEAD? SO IT'S NOT LIKE THERE WAS ANY HARM IN HIM DOING THAT STUFF WITH THE BODIES
BUT IF I THINK ABOUT THE STUFF HE'S DONE AND WOULD PROBABLY DO IF HE EVER THOUGHT IT WAS A GOOD IDEA
LIKE GENUINELY START TO CONSIDER IT AND THAT HE COULD VERY WELL START TO DO THAT AGAIN
IT'S LIKE MY PROTEIN CHUTE STARTS TO CLOSE AND TRIES TO CHOKE ME THE FUCK OUT.
I WOULDN'T LET HIM DO THAT TO THEM THIS TIME.
I'D RATHER DIE THAN LET HIM DO THAT AGAIN.
BUT I'D JUST RATHER NOT THINK ABOUT IT.
GAMZEE HASN'T DONE ANYTHING TO HURT ME HERE.
THERE WAS ANOTHER GAMZEE FROM A DIFFERENT POINT ON THE TIMELINE
HELL, MAYBE EVEN A COMPLETELY DIFFERENT TIMELINE ITSELF
WHO WAS HERE BEFORE HIM WHO DID, BUT IT'S NOT LIKE THAT EVEN MATTERED THAT MUCH SINCE NO ONE FOUND OUT ABOUT IT AND I DON'T THINK HE EVEN WANTED TO KILL ME THEN.
HE JUST FREAKED OUT ABOUT SOMETHING SO IT'S COOL.
I CAN'T SAY ANYTHING SINCE I KNOW IF ANYONE ELSE HEARD ABOUT THAT IT WOULD BE A FUCKING DISASTER AND I DON'T WANT GAMZEE TO HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT.
HE DOESN'T KNOW WHAT HAPPENED EITHER SO IT'S NOT LIKE ANYONE COULD EVEN HOLD HIM RESPONSIBLE FOR IT, BUT THEY WOULD. THEY'D SAY SHIT LIKE "YEAH WELL, WHAT IF HE DOES IT AGAIN?"
AND I'VE THOUGHT ABOUT THAT TOO.
THE THING THAT GETS ME IS I STILL FEEL SAFE WITH HIM.
HOW FUCKED UP IS THAT?
I KNOW HE COULD TAKE THE FLAT HUMAN KITCHEN UTENSIL AND FLIP A MIGHTY SHIT SO HIGH IT NEVER COMES BACK DOWN. HE COULD DECIDE TO PAINT THE WALLS WITH MY BODY FLUIDS AND MAKE A SHIPPING CHART COMPRISED SOLELY OF WHO HE'S GOING TO MURDER NEXT.
I KNOW SOME OF THE STUFF HE DOES IS PRETTY CREEPY.
HE'S GOTTEN CLOSE TO MY VERTEBRAL COLUMN AND HASN'T SNAPPED MY NECK OR CRUSHED MY CRANIAL SHELL YET SO I DON'T THINK HE'S GOT A REASON TO DO IT.
IF HE WANTED TO KILL ME HE COULD HAVE DONE IT BY NOW.
HE'S EVEN FREAKED OUT A BIT BEFORE AND SINCE I ACTUALLY STEPPED UP, NOTHING BAD HAPPENED.
I FEEL LIKE IT'S SAFE TO TRUST HE'S NOT GOING TO TRY TO KILL ME.
PRIOR TO ARRIVING AT NEW MOORE I WAS KINDA IN THE MIDDLE OF RUNNING FROM HIM, SO YEAH.
I'D SAY MY OPINION OF HIM HAS CHANGED A FUCKING LOT.
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SHE'S STILL PRETTY CRAZY BUT IT ACTUALLY MEANS A LOT TO ME THAT SHE ISN'T TRYING TO FUCK THINGS UP.
SHE COULD JUST SAY "FUCK THAT GUY" AND NOT CARE ABOUT HOW I FEEL AT ALL, BUT SHE ISN'T DOING THAT.
I'M NOT GOING TO SAY THIS TO HER SINCE SHE'D GET OFFENDED BECAUSE SHE STILL HASN'T LEARNED THE FACT SHE HAS A PRETTY FUCKING HEFTY TRACK RECORD OF RUINING, MURDERING, AND OTHERWISE WRECKING SHIT MEANS PEOPLE MIGHT HAVE THEIR DOUBTS ABOUT HER EVEN IF THEY DECIDE TO GIVE HER A CHANCE
WHICH WAS WHAT HAPPENED WITH ME.
SHE'D GET REALLY MAD AT ME FOR SAYING THIS BUT I'M REALLY SURPRISED SHE ISN'T TRYING TO FUCK THINGS UP FOR ME OUT OF HER OWN SELFISH DESIRES KNOWING HOW SHE FEELS ABOUT JOHN.
IT'S NOT THAT I DON'T THINK SHE CAN CONTROL HERSELF OR THAT SHE'S A MONSTER
I JUST DON'T SEE WHY SHE SHOULD GIVE A SHIT ABOUT ME.
VRISKA'S ALWAYS BEEN AN OPPORTUNIST AND SHE'LL TAKE ADVANTAGE OF WHATEVER SHE CAN BUT SHE'S SHOWING RESTRAINT THERE.
AND HONESTLY? IT'S REALLY FUCKING WEIRD.
I DON'T KNOW HOW TO FEEL ABOUT THAT EITHER.
IF TEREZI SHOWED UP RIGHT NOW I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW I'D EXPLAIN THIS.
EXPLAINING WHAT'S GOING ON WITH JOHN WOULDN'T BE HALF AS HARD AS "HEY, YOU KNOW THAT GIRL YOU HAVE A BUNCH OF DRAMA WITH?
HAHA, YEAH, VRISKA!
SO YEAH, GIVEN THE EVIDENCE AND EVERYTHING THAT'S HAPPENED SINCE VRISKA'S BEEN HERE
WE'RE ACTUALLY REALLY GOOD FRIENDS RIGHT NOW. WEIRD HUH? HAHA. MAN, HOW THINGS CHANGE!!!"
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I GET IT'S SELFISH OF ME TO SAY THAT BECAUSE THERE ARE A LOT OF THINGS I COULD CHANGE TO MAKE THINGS EASIER FOR EVERYONE.
FOR ONE, I COULD CHANGE IT SO THEY ACTUALLY HAD SOMEBODY WHO KNEW WHAT THE HELL THEY WERE DOING
I COULD ALSO MAKE IT WHERE VRISKA DOESN'T HAVE TO GET PUT THROUGH THE HELL I WENT THROUGH WHEN I KNEW TEREZI WAS INTERESTED IN SOMEONE OTHER THAN ME
BUT I'M NOT GOING TO SAY ANYMORE ON THAT SINCE THAT'S NOT THE QUESTION AND I DON'T FEEL LIKE GETTING INTO IT.
MY FINAL ANSWER IS NO. MAKING ANY CHANGES AT ALL MIGHT CHANGE THE CIRCUMSTANCE I HAVE NOW.
I HAVE NO IDEA HOW IT ENDED UP THE WAY IT DID. I DON'T KNOW WHY HE ACTUALLY CARES ABOUT ME.
I MEAN HE ALWAYS DID AS A FRIEND? THERE WAS NO QUESTION ABOUT THAT. HE'S A GOOD PERSON AND A GREAT LEADER, BUT...
IT'S BEEN A WHOLE HUMAN YEAR AND IT STILL SURPRISES ME. I DON'T KNOW WHEN HE STARTED AND CHANGING ANYTHING MIGHT EFFECT MY SITUATION WHERE MAYBE IT WOULDN'T HAVE TURNED OUASJFLKASJFLLJAASW;JLFSLDF;KDSLKFSJDF
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NO
THIS IS STUPID
FORGET IT
I'M NOT TALKING ABOUT THIS ANYMORE.
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LIKE I'VE STATED BEFORE, NO ONE'S ACTUALLY DIED HERE.
THEY'VE BEEN DOING REALLY WELL.
BLAH BLAH BLAH I'M NOT REPEATING MYSELF, ETC.
IF THEY DON'T GET ALONG THEY AT LEAST COEXIST WITH EACH OTHER FOR THE MOST PART WHEN SHIT ISN'T HITTING THE WHIRRING DEVICE AND THEY TURN INTO SOME KIND OF HALF-MONSTER HYBRID.
I MEAN THEY COULD STAND TO SEE SOME IMPROVEMENT TOO BUT THEY ACTUALLY IMPROVE ALL THE TIME.
I DON'T EXPECT THEY'RE GOING TO BE PERFECT BUT WE HAVE GONE A LONG TIME WITH NOBODY DYING.
DO YOU KNOW HOW BIG OF A DEAL THAT IS??? IT'S A PRETTY BIG DEAL.
FFFFUUUUUUUUUCK YOU I'M DONE.