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This Meme.
I don't expect participation but this is on the off-chance there are questions. Warning For Those Who May Ask: I will most likely be terrible at this meme because I have a hard time making my brain cooperate with giving out information that I want to keep secret. As such, I may or may not answer them properly if I plan to use the topic of your asking against you or someone else at some point in the future. |
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THANKS A LOT I'M LEAVING AFTER I ANSWER THIS SHIT. 1/SEVERAL.
YOU'RE ASKING HOW MY OPINIONS HAVE CHANGED WHICH IS EASY ENOUGH BUT YOU'RE ALSO TALKING A LOT ABOUT "HAPPINESS" AND "MURDER"
LIKE THOSE TWO SENTIMENTS ARE HITCHED LIKE A HUMAN MARRIAGE AND CAN'T GET ENOUGH OF EACH OTHER!
THIS HAPPY COUPLE HAS NO "DIVORCE" IN SIGHT. THEY'LL EACH BELONG TO ONE ANOTHER, TO HAVE AND TO HOLD TILL DEATH DO THEY PART!
AND CONSIDERING ONE OF THEM IS *FUCKING MURDER* I CAN SAY IN GOOD CONSCIENCE HAPPINESS' LIFESPAN HAS JUST GONE DOWN BY A METRIC SHITTON.
YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MANY TONS OF SHIT IT HAS GONE DOWN. THE SHIT IS SO HEAVY HAPPINESS IS SMOTHERED WITH IT.
IN FACT, I THINK THE COOLING HOLLOWED OUT HUSK OF HAPPINESS IS ALREADY DEAD ON THE GROUND, SO I HOPE THEIR TORRID AFFAIR WAS WORTH IT!
IT SOUNDS LIKE YOU THINK THERE'S NOTHING I SHOULD CHERISH MORE THAN MY BATSHIT "MURDER BUDDIES" RETAINING THEIR MURDEROUS SENSIBILITIES.
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I COMPLETELY AGREE WE'RE ALL RESPONSIBLE FOR THE CHOICES WE MADE IN OUR SESSION
AND OUR FAILURES WITH REGARDS TO WHAT HAPPENED ON THE METEOR
BUT ALL OF US WERE UNDER UNIQUE CIRCUMSTANCES BACK THEN.
OUR LIFE IS OVERALL PRETTY STABLE HERE, ERRATIC EPISODES OF UNPRECEDENTED SHITLAND FUCKERY NOT WITHSTANDING.
I MEAN THINK ABOUT IT. COMPARED TO WHAT WE'VE FACED, THE STUFF THAT GOES ON HERE IS PRACTICALLY A "CAKE WALK."
WHATEVER THAT ACTUALLY MEANS. WHO MADE THAT PHRASE UP ANYWAY?
A CAKE WALK JUST SOUNDS STUPID, LIKE WHAT JOHN DID WHEN HE DECIDED TO CRAM HIS ARMS INTO CAKE
EXCEPT INSTEAD OF USING ARMS YOU'RE JUST STEPPING IN IT
AND IF YOU'RE NOT WEARING THE APPROPRIATE GEAR AT THE END OF YOUR APPENDAGES
IT GETS BETWEEN YOUR LOWER EXTREMITIES AND IT JUST IS SQUISHY AND UNCOMFORTABLE.
ACTUALLY SCRATCH THAT, IT'S NOT LIKE A "CAKE WALK" AT ALL.
IT'S LIKE SOMETHING THAT DOESN'T SUCK NEARLY AS MUCH AS WHAT WE WERE ORIGINALLY HANDED.
NOT THAT I'M TRASHING LIFE ON ALTERNIA. ALTERNIA WAS AWESOME.
THE AMOUNT OF CULTURAL HISTORY OUR RACE EXPERIENCED WAS SO MUCH MORE THAN THE PITIFUL EXCUSE FOR CULTURE HUMANS HAVE.
BUT IT'S ACTUALLY NICE TO NOT WORRY ABOUT GETTING CULLED WHENEVER YOU STEP OUTSIDE
EVEN IF THERE'S NOT EXACTLY MUCH TO DO WHEN YOU'RE STRANDED ON AN ISLAND WITH NO WAY TO GET OFF.
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PERSONALLY? I'VE CONTINUED TO DO A LOT OF STUPID STUFF HERE.
BUT THIS ISN'T ABOUT ME, SO WHATEVER. ANYWAY, ERIDAN DESTROYED THE MATRIORB AND OBLITERATED ANY HOPE FOR OUR RACE TO CONTINUE.
WE ARE LITERALLY THE LAST OF OUR KIND. WE'RE GOING TO GO EXTINCT AND WHEN WE DIE THE HUMANS WILL PROBABLY ENGAGE IN A CORPSE PARTY
FOLLOWED BY THEIR WEIRD CORSE BURYING RITUALS
AND THEN SOMEBODY LIKE ARADIA IS GOING TO DIG UP OUR BONES THOUSANDS OF YEARS LATER AND WONDER "WHAT THE FUCK WAS UP WITH THESE THINGS? WHY DO THEY HAVE HORNS???"
AND THERE'S GOING TO BE NO ANSWER BECAUSE WHATEVER SPECIES EXISTS AT THAT TIME WILL PROBABLY CLAIM THE ANGELS PUT OUR BODIES THERE TO CHALLENGE THEIR FAITH OR SOMETHING
SO OUR BONES GO BACK INTO A HUMAN NECROPOLIS OR DROPPED OFF IN THE SEA OR MADE INTO CHEAP UTENSILS UNTIL THEY CRACK OR BREAK AND THEN SUBSEQUENTLY GET THROWN OUT, NEVER TO BE SEEN AGAIN.
HE KILLED KANAYA. WHEN HE ARRIVED, I THOUGHT HE WAS LYING WHEN HE TOLD ME SHE CAME BACK TO LIFE AND KILLED HIM!
IT JUST SEEMED LIKE THE KIND OF BULLSHIT HE'D MAKE UP TO STOP ME FROM BEING PISSED OFF AT HIM, SO I TOLD HIM TO FUCK OFF.
I REALLY HATED HIM. EVERYTHING ABOUT THAT EMOTION WAS PLATONIC. I SINCERELY WANTED HIM TO DIE.
THEN KANAYA SHOWED UP AND IT TURNED OUT HE WASN'T LYING TO ME AFTER ALL.
HE DIDN'T EVEN RUB IT IN MY FACE THAT MUCH.
WHEN I WAS WORRIED ABOUT TEREZI NOT BEING HERE HE ACTUALLY TRIED TO BE NICE TO ME ABOUT IT, LIKE A FRIEND WOULD.
HE'S
I DUNNO. I MEAN, HE'S STILL ERIDAN? BUT HE'S GOTTEN A LOT BETTER.
I KNOW HE FUCKED UP A LOT IN THE PAST BUT I DON'T THINK HE'D MAKE THOSE MISTAKES AGAIN.
I CAN'T REALLY SAY IF HE'D BETRAY ANYONE ELSE, BUT I DON'T THINK HE'D TURN HIS BACK ON ME.
HE HASN'T DONE THAT YET AND I DON'T SEE WHY HE WOULD.
WHAT I'M SAYING IS I KNOW HE'S DANGEROUS BUT HE'S ALSO MY FRIEND AND I TRUST HIM.
THAT ENDED UP BEING PRETTY SURPRISING!
I DIDN'T THINK I'D FEEL THAT WAY ABOUT HIM AGAIN.
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I DON'T ACTUALLY LIKE TO THINK ABOUT IT.
WHY DID HE KEEP SEVERED PRONGS?
WHY DID HE MURDER OUR FRIENDS?
I KNOW I SENT EQUIUS TO KILL HIM AND THEN NEPETA GOT INVOLVED
BUT WHY DID HE HAVE TO DO THAT TO THEM? I MEAN
GOD
BLOOD WAS EVERYWHERE.
ERIDAN WAS IN THREE PIECES.
HE CUT HIM UP AFTER HE WAS ALREADY DEAD.
I MEAN I GUESS AT LEAST HE ONLY REALLY STARTED TO CUT UP CORPSES FOR THE MOST PART AFTER THEY WERE DEAD? SO IT'S NOT LIKE THERE WAS ANY HARM IN HIM DOING THAT STUFF WITH THE BODIES
BUT IF I THINK ABOUT THE STUFF HE'S DONE AND WOULD PROBABLY DO IF HE EVER THOUGHT IT WAS A GOOD IDEA
LIKE GENUINELY START TO CONSIDER IT AND THAT HE COULD VERY WELL START TO DO THAT AGAIN
IT'S LIKE MY PROTEIN CHUTE STARTS TO CLOSE AND TRIES TO CHOKE ME THE FUCK OUT.
I WOULDN'T LET HIM DO THAT TO THEM THIS TIME.
I'D RATHER DIE THAN LET HIM DO THAT AGAIN.
BUT I'D JUST RATHER NOT THINK ABOUT IT.
GAMZEE HASN'T DONE ANYTHING TO HURT ME HERE.
THERE WAS ANOTHER GAMZEE FROM A DIFFERENT POINT ON THE TIMELINE
HELL, MAYBE EVEN A COMPLETELY DIFFERENT TIMELINE ITSELF
WHO WAS HERE BEFORE HIM WHO DID, BUT IT'S NOT LIKE THAT EVEN MATTERED THAT MUCH SINCE NO ONE FOUND OUT ABOUT IT AND I DON'T THINK HE EVEN WANTED TO KILL ME THEN.
HE JUST FREAKED OUT ABOUT SOMETHING SO IT'S COOL.
I CAN'T SAY ANYTHING SINCE I KNOW IF ANYONE ELSE HEARD ABOUT THAT IT WOULD BE A FUCKING DISASTER AND I DON'T WANT GAMZEE TO HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT.
HE DOESN'T KNOW WHAT HAPPENED EITHER SO IT'S NOT LIKE ANYONE COULD EVEN HOLD HIM RESPONSIBLE FOR IT, BUT THEY WOULD. THEY'D SAY SHIT LIKE "YEAH WELL, WHAT IF HE DOES IT AGAIN?"
AND I'VE THOUGHT ABOUT THAT TOO.
THE THING THAT GETS ME IS I STILL FEEL SAFE WITH HIM.
HOW FUCKED UP IS THAT?
I KNOW HE COULD TAKE THE FLAT HUMAN KITCHEN UTENSIL AND FLIP A MIGHTY SHIT SO HIGH IT NEVER COMES BACK DOWN. HE COULD DECIDE TO PAINT THE WALLS WITH MY BODY FLUIDS AND MAKE A SHIPPING CHART COMPRISED SOLELY OF WHO HE'S GOING TO MURDER NEXT.
I KNOW SOME OF THE STUFF HE DOES IS PRETTY CREEPY.
HE'S GOTTEN CLOSE TO MY VERTEBRAL COLUMN AND HASN'T SNAPPED MY NECK OR CRUSHED MY CRANIAL SHELL YET SO I DON'T THINK HE'S GOT A REASON TO DO IT.
IF HE WANTED TO KILL ME HE COULD HAVE DONE IT BY NOW.
HE'S EVEN FREAKED OUT A BIT BEFORE AND SINCE I ACTUALLY STEPPED UP, NOTHING BAD HAPPENED.
I FEEL LIKE IT'S SAFE TO TRUST HE'S NOT GOING TO TRY TO KILL ME.
PRIOR TO ARRIVING AT NEW MOORE I WAS KINDA IN THE MIDDLE OF RUNNING FROM HIM, SO YEAH.
I'D SAY MY OPINION OF HIM HAS CHANGED A FUCKING LOT.
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SHE'S STILL PRETTY CRAZY BUT IT ACTUALLY MEANS A LOT TO ME THAT SHE ISN'T TRYING TO FUCK THINGS UP.
SHE COULD JUST SAY "FUCK THAT GUY" AND NOT CARE ABOUT HOW I FEEL AT ALL, BUT SHE ISN'T DOING THAT.
I'M NOT GOING TO SAY THIS TO HER SINCE SHE'D GET OFFENDED BECAUSE SHE STILL HASN'T LEARNED THE FACT SHE HAS A PRETTY FUCKING HEFTY TRACK RECORD OF RUINING, MURDERING, AND OTHERWISE WRECKING SHIT MEANS PEOPLE MIGHT HAVE THEIR DOUBTS ABOUT HER EVEN IF THEY DECIDE TO GIVE HER A CHANCE
WHICH WAS WHAT HAPPENED WITH ME.
SHE'D GET REALLY MAD AT ME FOR SAYING THIS BUT I'M REALLY SURPRISED SHE ISN'T TRYING TO FUCK THINGS UP FOR ME OUT OF HER OWN SELFISH DESIRES KNOWING HOW SHE FEELS ABOUT JOHN.
IT'S NOT THAT I DON'T THINK SHE CAN CONTROL HERSELF OR THAT SHE'S A MONSTER
I JUST DON'T SEE WHY SHE SHOULD GIVE A SHIT ABOUT ME.
VRISKA'S ALWAYS BEEN AN OPPORTUNIST AND SHE'LL TAKE ADVANTAGE OF WHATEVER SHE CAN BUT SHE'S SHOWING RESTRAINT THERE.
AND HONESTLY? IT'S REALLY FUCKING WEIRD.
I DON'T KNOW HOW TO FEEL ABOUT THAT EITHER.
IF TEREZI SHOWED UP RIGHT NOW I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW I'D EXPLAIN THIS.
EXPLAINING WHAT'S GOING ON WITH JOHN WOULDN'T BE HALF AS HARD AS "HEY, YOU KNOW THAT GIRL YOU HAVE A BUNCH OF DRAMA WITH?
HAHA, YEAH, VRISKA!
SO YEAH, GIVEN THE EVIDENCE AND EVERYTHING THAT'S HAPPENED SINCE VRISKA'S BEEN HERE
WE'RE ACTUALLY REALLY GOOD FRIENDS RIGHT NOW. WEIRD HUH? HAHA. MAN, HOW THINGS CHANGE!!!"
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I GET IT'S SELFISH OF ME TO SAY THAT BECAUSE THERE ARE A LOT OF THINGS I COULD CHANGE TO MAKE THINGS EASIER FOR EVERYONE.
FOR ONE, I COULD CHANGE IT SO THEY ACTUALLY HAD SOMEBODY WHO KNEW WHAT THE HELL THEY WERE DOING
I COULD ALSO MAKE IT WHERE VRISKA DOESN'T HAVE TO GET PUT THROUGH THE HELL I WENT THROUGH WHEN I KNEW TEREZI WAS INTERESTED IN SOMEONE OTHER THAN ME
BUT I'M NOT GOING TO SAY ANYMORE ON THAT SINCE THAT'S NOT THE QUESTION AND I DON'T FEEL LIKE GETTING INTO IT.
MY FINAL ANSWER IS NO. MAKING ANY CHANGES AT ALL MIGHT CHANGE THE CIRCUMSTANCE I HAVE NOW.
I HAVE NO IDEA HOW IT ENDED UP THE WAY IT DID. I DON'T KNOW WHY HE ACTUALLY CARES ABOUT ME.
I MEAN HE ALWAYS DID AS A FRIEND? THERE WAS NO QUESTION ABOUT THAT. HE'S A GOOD PERSON AND A GREAT LEADER, BUT...
IT'S BEEN A WHOLE HUMAN YEAR AND IT STILL SURPRISES ME. I DON'T KNOW WHEN HE STARTED AND CHANGING ANYTHING MIGHT EFFECT MY SITUATION WHERE MAYBE IT WOULDN'T HAVE TURNED OUASJFLKASJFLLJAASW;JLFSLDF;KDSLKFSJDF
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NO
THIS IS STUPID
FORGET IT
I'M NOT TALKING ABOUT THIS ANYMORE.
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LIKE I'VE STATED BEFORE, NO ONE'S ACTUALLY DIED HERE.
THEY'VE BEEN DOING REALLY WELL.
BLAH BLAH BLAH I'M NOT REPEATING MYSELF, ETC.
IF THEY DON'T GET ALONG THEY AT LEAST COEXIST WITH EACH OTHER FOR THE MOST PART WHEN SHIT ISN'T HITTING THE WHIRRING DEVICE AND THEY TURN INTO SOME KIND OF HALF-MONSTER HYBRID.
I MEAN THEY COULD STAND TO SEE SOME IMPROVEMENT TOO BUT THEY ACTUALLY IMPROVE ALL THE TIME.
I DON'T EXPECT THEY'RE GOING TO BE PERFECT BUT WE HAVE GONE A LONG TIME WITH NOBODY DYING.
DO YOU KNOW HOW BIG OF A DEAL THAT IS??? IT'S A PRETTY BIG DEAL.
FFFFUUUUUUUUUCK YOU I'M DONE.